Old habits sometimes fade into obscurity.

One of the most difficult things I went through as a teenager was self-harming.

I remember all the discourse surrounding it more than anything - People would say that you wanted attention, that you were sick in the head.

But as I understand it now - It was a physical manifestation of inward pain.

It;s truly a painful experience, and the weird part about it is It never had a proper sendoff for me.

One day, I just decided that I seriously had to stop.

It wasn’t a grand display of forgiveness or acceptance, or something I feel was super important for my life..

I really liked it when I did it because of the release I felt after *which now looking back could’ve been achieved with just working out lol

Sometimes the harder things in life just melt off of us at random times.

I suppose iti feels weird that this chapter didnt have a powerful sendoff,

but sometimes its better that way.

short and sweet. going to post another extra cuz of the camping trip.

-City