From Persephone to Athena

Ever since I was a young child I longed to be saved by something out there.

Like maybe one day I’d get miraculous powers, or find my handsome knight in shining armor to come rescue me. This pattern I believe was forme a bit from the media I had consumed, and a lot from what I assumed a woman was supposed to be.

As I grew older this pattern enraptured itself into me looking for sugar daddies, begging people who didn’t like me to possibly stay around me, and getting ghosted CONSTANTLY.

It became so prevalent that I myself began to take one the role of the people hurting me, I’d force myself into my friends problems, coaching them, and also become the perpetrator and ghost people myself.

Eventually it became such a prominent issue I began to avoid all the gifts that life had to offer me.

I stopped performing in plays in school, I stopped writing and creating art, I also skimped on creating pages on social media like I had always wanted to.

There’s a time and place for everyone on this earth to express themselves in their purpose, and I know that I am definitly on the way now, but it took a lot of work for me personally to get here.

I identified with Persephone for a long time. In her unhealed old story state specifically.

Weak, Damsel, Soft, Floral feminine in hell.

My life was composed of just that experience, pain all around me.

I was in a curriculum of learning self love in the hardest places to come to clarity, when my psychic gifts were trying to show me true vision, I was intentionally witholding mysel from them to fit in, shrink, and to wait on my perfect moment of false soverignty.

This past year I lost everything. Friends, my favorite apartment, clothes. You name it.

In that lonelieness though I finally found the thing I had been searching for all along…

My power, which in fact the greatest power of all is expressed through Self Soverignty.

Why I equate this new energy I’m encompassing as Athena as a major archerype is because we consider the heroes journey to be one of strife and conflict.

Although a lot of my teachings tend to stem from the illusion of conflict on earth - I’m still learning /And the nod to struggle I like to express through a powerful metaphor of the highest form of combat and resolution.

A won battle.

I finally decided to escape my strife and take my goals in life sincerely, spiritually, and worthwhile.

My biggest issus have been shame + visibility for sure.

But as I continue to share my story and express myself oh my god it gets so much EASIER!

From wounded Persephone to Prosperous Athena - to realizing there are positive aspects and negative aspects of both…

Persephone in her Healthy expression is Divinely Feminine Power, connection to the plants and having solid roots in hell, as she expresses her divinity in the spring and summer months, only to fade into hell in the winter to regrow…

Pretty powerful.

Thanks for reading.

-City